Strong Sense Of Energy & Emotions

Anger, Stress, & Sadness, Fuming from some people, although it is a relief to see someone bright and happy. I feel so distant, I want to help all these people with such sorrows, but I feel like they just want to be left alone...But there is such a pressuring feeling as if It is my job to help these people. I can sense everyones energy strongly. Ever since October, And new things awaken & become stronger within me bit by bit, I wonder what will happen next. I will be oversleeping quite a bit due to these energy drainers, hopefully if I try to assist some of them, I will not feel so drained anymore.

It's too bad I cannot block these emotions out, it's almost suffocating sometimes, I could almost cry, or I just want to hug some of them. I wish humans wouldn't hide emotions so much, especially when they know how dear they are too me... >: 

Moths

Moths are the butterflies of the night. They remain faithful to the moon, fae of the darkness. This lovely evening, an array of Moths surrounded me, it was then I felt comforted by nature once again, as if lost ones had come to visit me in another form. They did not stray as I walked, Merely floating elegantly among my aura. They flocked not in my face, nor on my skin, a decent space between, like guarding me beneath the moonlit sky. The moon was large, & had completely lit the starless sky. I was happy in this walk, the spirits of the earth had grasped onto me like a snug embrace, It's been quite some time...!

Socially Distorted

I don't speak well with humans, and it's proving difficult. I suffer if I do not have a few weeks away from people generally, but when I get too distant from socializing, and 'friends' I begin to suffer as well, and become very depressed. I've lost most of my best friends, and I'm trying to get close to some new ones, and...old ones that I never really made enough effort to get to know them.

I wish to speak, one on one with these people, find common interests, become close. Ect. Bonds with people are very valuable, and I treasure the memories. I wish for someone that I can share my passions with..but it looks like I'm having quite the bit of issues. I need a best friend...I need someone who likes the same stuff as me...I feel so alone. It's so easy to get along with people...but to bond with them, is a whole other level...

Passionate Cosplaying

Cosplay, Dressing-up, Fashion! They are so much fun. I'm far too passionate for it. Oh, I wish I knew how to make my own clothes. If only I had a teacher of some sort...! One day I would love to take sewing classes, but I wonder if I'd have time with all the current hobbies I have?
It comes down to my love for fashion and acting, My despise against the real world. Characters, well, look...and are, so different. It can also portray the type of people you love, or part of who you would like to become.

Cosplays I own
Stocking [Panty Stocking & Garterbelt]
Naoto [A button broke...Need a tie wrap.]
Hell Girl/Enma Ai [Was complete, but need better lenses, Also, my shirt ripped D:>]
Black Rock Shooter [ Could be complete. Want a different pair of boots, Wig & Lenses]
Saria [Good to go, Want blue contacts though!]

I want to cosplay [Gumi] - Vocaloid ..! She is very lively, but I see her as "Cool" too. I love her electric style, her green hair & goggles. I love her songs too...! They remind me of a lot of events I've had before, I can relate.

I wanna cosplay Izaya, but he's a guy. Not sure how well I could pull it off. Hm...


So many people I want to cosplay. But such an expensive Hobby. But I love it so much...

I also love lolita, I own a few outfits, and One actual dress, but I have no brand-dresses. Or I want at least one fancy one, cheapest are usually at least $200 though..I don't know if I can handle. D: Ahhh.

I really wish I had friends who would cosplay with me, who would try the best to look as the characters. =x=! No one wants too, though. I want to do a group cosplay one day, And I really want to cosplay Homura Akemi from my favorite Anime, Madoka Magica. I hope to find members who would do the group with me..!